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My Blog
19.01.2026
Now it't really been a hot minute. Before I was really unmotivated to do anything. I was always feeling upset and my self esteem and self worth got really low because of the shitty situation of my now ex. I was really starting to just give up on dating at that point but the start of November, that changed. I met a guy at a bonfire my brother was hosting, (after being ghosted by a girl who was apparently super into me? for 11 days. this will be a different blog post lol) and him and I really hit it off, talking, walking about the property, drinking and just chilling. He asked for my number lol and i kept asking how drunk he was and then after the 4th time and near the end of the fire (at like 4am) I decided to give him my number and we were talking like every day after. 3 days after meeting, we start something and the weekend after we first met we asked eachother out. I've been putting a lot of time and effort into this relationship. I know its been a few months at this point but I'm really putting effort into solifiying ground rules, how serious I am, and actually seeing our compatibilities. Not just diving into a new thing and hoping for the best. I'm actually working and evaluating everything and working on this relationship, taking it seriously and putting the proper time and responsibiity into the growth of it and just the relationship itself. Learning my partner, his boundaries, his needs, lifestyle, views, interests and fiting our pieces in with each other to where there is no overlapping, resistances, intrusions, damage, etc. Actually trying to make this work and be a proper relationship. So far it's been wonderful, we communicate, and communicate on and even field, never down to either person, we talk all the time, we reassure, we ask questions, we check in, all of it. We both come from painful past relationships but we are both well coped and learned from those experiences and so we are both serious and have the same approach which has been wonderful and so understanding on both ends. I now and comfortable with where we are going and the 'new honey moon' phase is sissling out so I now find myself having time to edit and work on my site again lol. I am alive, I am better, I am happy. Hi Y'all
04.10.2025
Been a hot minute since I've been on my neocities. Quite a bit has happened. I've been single since July. I had to end things bc my now ex was burning me out mentally and emotionally making me do all his mental break down work and he's always get too comfortable and act like a dick but because he got comfy, he acted surprised that I was upset at him blatently bullying me and insulting me in front of other people. Maybe that's abuse. I don't know. He also cheated on me for a year and a half (we were together for 2 and an half years) with over 20 different women. The first time I caught him I should have left him but I gave him a huge ultimatum and that was to go to therapy, dismantle that habit and actually change for the better. He promised me and cheated again anyways, only 4 months after I originally caught him. "I couldn't help it. I needed that high to survive. Its been so hard for me not to cheat". Sorry, its actually REALLY easy NOT to cheat. You just don't do it. "I can't change overnight" yeah quiting something like nicotine is difficult but cheating? Just dont do it again? Don't put yourself in the spot to do it? Just say no? Or you know, DON'T! He also violated my boundaries constantly. He wont't admit it but hes very ignorant and kind of Anti-Ace. He said he understands I'm Ace but tries to "fix" me anyways, said i didn't need to be "fixed" but said he was unhappy and can't live like that but also didn't wanna leave me but he can't live an "Ace Life" and yadada back and forth circling. I had to just put my foot down because he hurt me, cheated, lied to me, bullied me, and cried wolf ever conflict. You know what he said when I asked why is he like this? "Because I was fat when I was 8." WTF does being fat as a kid have to do with being a chronic cheater, liar, bully and entitled ignorant prick? Idc if he was fat as a kid. Actually shit out of his mouth of his excuses. Anyways, I'm just been dealing with that, I participated in Artfight (team crystals!) and kind of just finding myself and expressing myself as me and being openly as Ace rather than treat it like this shadow of a thing. It isnt a shadow that follows me. It is me. People need to look at me and see I'm Ace, if I make it a shadow, people won't recognize it's there and will treat it like it will go away. So I'm wearing it on my sleeve now. If people don't want it, they can looks away and leave. If people see it and still wanna stick around, than there we go. That's my new blog so far. Just an update. I'll try to update my site more, I've just been investing in my hobbies more and I've been getting my property and work ready for the Winter so by the end of the day on my free time, I kind of just relax or do an easy hobby I can do in bed. Hope any who read this have a good day and a Chilling, Spooky October!
29.05.2025
First blog on neocities! This weekend I'm going to be helping sheer alpacas and omg, my transphoic ex is gonna be there. He is like the walking poster child of a misogynistic rigth winger. Hates trans ppl, gay ppl, POC, ppl of any religion that isnt a form of Christian, women, and specifacally women with "short blue hair" and who are feminists. Hates women working and voting, denies the horrors that happened to the indigenous peoples. Awful human but while hes gonna be there, I'm preparing to dye my hair vibrant blue just for him as my hair is already short. I'm gonna be his nightmare. Anything rainbow, even if its a tiedye dog collar (actual accesory he was disgusted by) is his Kryptonite or is an offence to his space. So call me petty but I'm going to to become what he hates, "Short blue haired enby lesbian liberal feminist". Honestly, excited to become what he hates but also just annoyed that he will be there just bc hes a pathological liar and honestly just annoying and not good at the job. Anyways, first blog post! (Adding to the blog of this day; My iPad pencil fucking stopped working and I cant make any new drawings WAHHH. I'll have to go to an Apple store to either find the issue and/or get a replacment.)